12-5:

to do list:
-call doctors
-meet with gail at 2:00, find out what time the meeting on friday is, try to arrange to be off for it on friday.
-clean room, prioritize health.

notes:

11-18:

to do list:
-set up switch, later find more lan cables for it
-make a firestick work
-set up pi4 argon, recharge controllers, set up a little area.

This whole month, i have been completely destroyed by migraines. The tooth removal didn't help either. I felt like i was dying just a few days ago on tuesday night. I didn't go to work on wednesday, i went home and slept. I didn't play games, i was just in bed. So I'm a little bit better since then, but i still am not anywhere near normal. I have been cooking better with the new air fryer, and there's a few minor things i can do around here. Yesterday i reset my router and changed my network password because it was giving me issues. I still need to set up lots of little things like the pi 4 argon. I lost the pi3b snes, need to find that. My firesticks have not been plugged in in over a year. So my tv is kind of just fake. the chromebook is getting really old and starting to struggle. I might bet a mecool km2 plus deluxe, but i don't really want to right now. I could just go around sorting these minor things. I figured out a system for my clotes that's a little bit better, 1 basket for uw and socks, 1 for shorts and pajama bottoms and athletic pants if i had any, all shirts hung up, towels on the boxes on the left. this would make it faster to pack to go exercise, because i'd have the shorts all in a more predictable place. I still have to help jeanine, shavonne, dominique, and roger do various random things. It's strange but during this headache i suddenly became popular with the i need help type of people, or maybe just volunteered for stuff that i had been previously successfully avoiding. Still need to fix 3d printer too, that failed due to the headaches, it wasn't attempted, i can't do it today, i'll have to wait until monday. The dentists have also been calling me, and that's going well, the next appointment is in december 4th. I also need to make other doctor's appointments, but i'll have to do that monday.

11-13:

to do list:

-meet with gail at 2:00, make discord email with steps
-talk to dominique and shavon, see what they want.
-call dentist, ask if their systems are back up, make appointments.
-attempt to make doctor's appointment with sarah smith on the east side.
-try to fix and print from 3d printer
-try to fix signal and send a message
-try to call carryl company and get storage locker
-reseach self storage prices
-set new priorities
-think of things to work on on this site, list them in site details.

notes:

So since my last journal entry about 2 weeks ago i completed the chair upholstery, had my birthday, and got a better air fryer as a present. I then learned how to make good fried potatoes. I can now live mainly on boiled eggs from my egg shaped microwave egg boiler and breakfast potatoes. I went to the yearly condo association meeting and tried to vote to keep the condo fee down. It still went up by $25. I accidentally volunteered to make them a discord and a website. It's just a website where I post documents for them. The discord is hopefully where people are going to talk, but it doesn't seem to be going that way. A lady named Gail now visits me and asks me to make minor updates on both of these. I have to make a set of instructions telling people how to join the discord. I plan to make a basic email that says click here to join and also has a link to additinal instructions(that will be ai generated and slightly edited), and a link to a helpful video about signing up, and a way they can contact us if they want in person help with signing up. kind of a multi level, no not marketing scam, multi level tutorial. Also I think my signal stopped working or maybe i was removed, maybe at some point i should check on togos. The friends are part of a scam thing is true, but that scam is over and the problem with all relationships is usually just that you aren't living in the same place and time anymore, or you have problems that make you not do things with them, like i stopped going to pf because my tooth got taken out. It hasn't healed yet. That kind of thing, and bad schedules, and new people like gail and old people like this one guy who i make business cards for and this girl named dominique and her sister shavonne who i met at the call centers, who actually are one of the reasons why i got the money to buy this condo, now they need help too, which they do every once in a while, like once a year their stuff breaks. I might research getting a storage locker too. this could happen next year, i'd like one of the ones over near menards. there's a small storage room in the condo clubhouse too that i don't know how to access and i'm going to find out about that too. You can even supposedly rent an "office" in there, that's weird. It really shouldn't have any advantages over this room i would think. But might be cool to rent for a month. I also tried to print in tpu and kind of ruined my printer. I need to fix it. I realized i should send photos and phone notes to myself through dropbox. Plugging in my phone isn't hard, but it's just hard enough that i don't ever do it. I was already using drop box for this site, so it's really a great solution that i knew about but was ignoring for some reason. I thought of an idea today, an old idea but one i always forget about, making planter boxes out of sticks and burlap. I really should do that, grow potatoes in there.

11-01:

to do list: none.

-finalize table design, buy 2x2's, make main shelf if possible. try to cut all boards/ or at least have a cut list, or know how many boards you need, something. Maybe I can just complete the whole thing today. -get haircut or schedule it. (done)

notes:

I got a haircut.

to do list:

-call dentists -check voicemail on ooma phone. -haircut? nope, closed for halloween.

notes:

Yesterday i started physically planning the record player table. I can make it with the wood i already have, though i might need some 2 by 2's. Not sure how many i have. I also refilled the anjovy and gave myself the monthly shot, and refilled deoxycycline which i'll pick up tomorrow. I still haven't called any dentists, i need to do that. I also need to login to mychart on the new computer, i'll just look at my laptop tomorrow, i don't want to say forgot username.
This was a nice video, explained the problems with international aid and trade. I might get the book, and that book about the road trip henry ford and edison book, The Vagabonds, if/when i make a new bookshelf.

to do list:

-refill perscriptions -call dentists -hang up laundry -lightly clean rooms

notes:

I think i need to focus on restoring my medical situation today. I need to refill my perscriptions and call some doctors. crafting project set to record player table. After I'm stablized, i may set the main project to updating this site and fitness project to sleep for a week.
by the way, this video may be a big problem with me and everyone i know, and this website. It is a problem i'm aware of. What am i going to do about it?, i don't know, i don't fully understand the problem yet, and i'm not even planning on researching it very hard, and researching is extra difficult because researching it would be contradictory to the subject itself.
I'm also aware that i simply don't have the resources to do anything, including have friends or family, i don't have the time or energy, two resources. Money, land, health, and tools/tech are things i also of course lack, and they are what i have been mostly thinking i lack, so ok i don't have two additional resources that i haven't been thinking about properly. My whole life i've been a slave and a victim of repetive scams, and i'm very much in several scams right now. Most likely all my friendships and family relationships are also just part of one scam or another. Education/school = student loan scam, run by the banks, the schools etc, the friends are one of the things they put in there to sell you on it, like you can be friends with these people if you do all this homework and shit, but it isn't true, and later they make you think the same thing at workplaces etc, but these people are not stable, and can't be. Even if you think you have something, you don't, because you really can't have anything, a chair is not a chair, it's just people imagining that's what it is, it's just perceptions, i perceive this world, and the truth is everything in the universe is going to be destroyed, so everything a only a temporary lie, everything is seeking to get to a solid state, and now i just described nirvana, which i don't actually like either, i mean just because something never changes or is in its final form, doesn't make it any better either, i guess i think it all sucks no matter what it does or how it is, so that's one of the ways i get to a kind of fight everything forever no matter what mentality. Maybe i should make some videos of me fighting the air in my room. Yeah i might not be smart or strong or healthy enough to accomplish anything either, but those are also just temporary powers and accomplishing stuff, including increasing your intelligence, strength, or dexterity, is a scam too for the "achievement subject" types of reasons listed by that video above. I don't think socialism will work either though. I don't like that video's solution, because it's outdated, because siezing power over the means of production can't happen, they already solved that, they just moved the factories and automated the factories, and ship raw resources accross great distances. They also made it illegal for individuals to gather local natural resources(often in the name of environmentalism, but the real reason is to stop people from getting raw resources). There's no hard resources to take. Also, so what if the workers control a workplace? If you still have to go there or interact with it in anyway, the day is still the same, you still wasted all your time there. My fellow workers and neighbors are likely even worse than jeff bezos too, like you people aren't nice, you can't be, or you wouldn't exist, and that's because of the fact that nature itself is evil and the food chain is evil. Maybe I don't like the way energy is exchanged between life forms?
but ok i got distracted and stopped my list at #1 education/school, and didn't even explain that one right, but "loan scam" is close enough. That could describe our entire economy too. the life cycle of all living things too. Maybe everything else too, i just need to explain how each thing is a loan scam, and then it is, ok that's a new project too. Maybe i need to list this in a long list of scams at some point and even though i Like stream of consciousness writing, because i think it's better than what people consider good writing, i should still make a boring list with a max of one sentence for each scam at some point. For me every word i write generates several details and other subjects, so i should write both ways a little bit, change it up sometimes.
maybe i should focus more on just trying to make each day nice. Like, nice, i didn't have to talk to anyone today. maybe i could work four hours every day, then be done if i change my schedule at some point and slightly improve my economic situation. 7*4 = 28. 28 * $5/hour(let's not be overly optimistic about pay) = 140. 140*4 = 560/ month. ok i need to reduce all my expenses to less than $400/month (gotta save that $160). ok, i'm cancelling everything, I can't afford any subscriptions. working the 4 hours a day would make me wake up and get started every day and no day would be entirely ruined. OK now i've got to go to walgreens, byyyyeeee.

10-24 to do list:

-upholstery/chair repair
-put dentist info in health journal
-clean room
-research non-subscription, non hp, laser printers

random 10-24 notes:

It's now tuesday. I think i successfully washed the cushions, they're almost dry now. Business card thing is still going, but i need a way better printer, my printer is not designed for this. I made a temporary night stand thing out of the cardboard boxes that came with the creative katana v2x soundbar. I may have found the most expensive way to get cardboard boxes. So now i've got the small tv on there, electrical plugs, a space for my keys and stuff. I haven't hooked up the chromebook to that yet, i will. I bought a $5 wireless mouse at the dollar store(yes the dollar store has some $5 things now). I'm going to see how good it is, maybe i'll buy another and take it apart and see if it's possible to buy some little one dollar circuit board or something, and then 3d print a mouse like that. actually even for $100, 3d printing my own mouse would be cool, this is kind of like the flashlight stuff. I know people make keyboards, that appears to be harder, but maybe it isn't because there's probably more tutorials about it. anyway today before work at 5, i'm trying to call some dentists. the reupholstery project is going to be completed, likely by friday morning.
About the upholstery project, it's been giving me a sense that i need to have specific stages or phases of a project and know which one i'm in. I'm sure i've had ideas like this before, but i still seem to be so disorganized. On this one I was kind of stuck on the acquisition of materials, like i thought it was way too expensive. The only thing i bought ended up being the fabric, and that was $30. I also learned how to wait in line correctly at joann fabrics, which is something probably everyone else finds obvious. But I didn't know i was supposed to pick up the whole roll, take it up to the desk and then take the roll back after they cut it. In my first visit i tried to convince the cashier to go back there with me, without specifically asking him to, and that failed. So three weeks later i went back there and just watched what other people did, saw them picking up the rolls, etc. This made me feel like i have a social disability like autism, which i know i actually don't, i'm just short so people treat me differently and over time this takes a toll. This happens to all people, espcially girls, and black people(in this racist country), so all people have to figure out how they need to accomplish things with the body they have. Some have it harder than others and everyone thinks they have it the hardest. The cashier would have gone with me if i were a very pretty girl or a very intimidating 8' tall giant strongman if i had used the same random looks and the same lack of words, and i almost got him to go with me even in my current physical form, so it's not that, it's maybe adaptation speed, like i get into all these foreign situations with these projects, and it's the first time i'm there and i don't know what's up. So I like the observing idea. Just hide and watch the other customers. Goes with my body type too, i'm like a theif/stealth build.
I decided to wash the cushions instead of buying new ones,, the new ones i looked at at joann fabrics seemed to be way too much money, and there also didn't appear to be any rolls of the right size, though maybe they had some in back, but in their understaffed state they couldn't help me, and i tried to get them to and it didn't work so i decided to wash the ones i have. I know there's cheaper ones online, in the future, maybe i'll buy the cheapest temu cushions, then work my way up from there until i find something acceptable and know more about cushions, but that process will take a couple of centuries, which is fine now that i'm immortal. It took me a while to figure out how to wash them but eventually i found this upholstery cleaning powder at the dollar store, until that came along, i didn't know how i could properly wash them. Now they're almost dry and it looks like the project is going to be done soon.
I plan to paint the boards with farm implement paint, let them dry outside, then upholster the boards on thursday, if the boards are dry by then and don't smell, if they do smell, i'll just do it on monday. This doesn't have to be my main project anymore as it is basically done. it can move to the side like the sleep kit, which is still basically working, all i needed was the dissolving melatonin pills, the other stuff i'll use when it gets bad, and i didn't need to take it to the next level that i had planned to go to.
I'm going to start doing crafting projects regularly along with my sister, because she seems to pretty consistently make clay christmas ornaments, so while she's doing that i should be right there with her crafting, or preparing to craft. Maybe i can use her consistency to increase my own. then i can have a craft project, or even just work on flashlights right next to her. This should work better in a way than trying to work next to dan as I would probably be distracted by talking to him or seeing what he's doing or arguing with him. Though dan if you read this, we should still do that, maybe just more like once a month though. My teeth are healing and i should be able to exercise again soon too.
Tomorrow after work i need to take pictures of my car. It seems like peddle and all the other scrap sites only want to pay around $300. I also need to paint the boards, polish the chairs, find screws for the chairs, and set it up so it's ready to complete them on thursday or friday.

10-21 to do list:

-upholstery/chair repair
-business cards again
-clean room
-laundry
-make temporary test bed/tv stand/nightstand functional.
-research non-subscription, non hp, laser printers

random 10-21 notes:

Yesterday the tooth removal was more painful than i thought it would be at first. I had to call in from work, which was ok, this gave me some time to rest. I kind of squandered it, but it let me get a little better and now i have a better feeling of what i need to do next. I got ms office pro from a semi pirate site for $15. it works. I also found that i qualified for 3 free months of adobe suite because of my new computer. I have to cancel guitar practice again tomorrow because of the business card thing, which is making me some money. I decided not to wash the cushions because this would have been asking for reinfection, sickness. I might be able to do it tonight or tomorrow though. I made a very cheap test stand near the bed that holds the small tv and has 2 levels, i made it out of 2 cardboard boxes. I covered a small portion of it (near a very small heater) with tinfoil. this made me think i should add tinfoil as a potential way to coat advanced cardboard, in the advanced cardboard part of this website. there is probably tin foil that comes in different colors too, let me check, yeah there is, reminds me of hershey's kisses wrappers, probably need to research it more, because maybe it's just painted and not heat proof and loses its electrical properties, i don't want it to just be painted, i bet some of them are and some of them aren't, there's also gold leaf foil. I should look up alternatives, but i don't have time right now, if i ever read this again, maybe it will remind me to put a foil section into the advanced cardboard page.

10-19 to do list:

-Go to dentist tomorrow morning
-try to find car selling sites.

random 10-19 notes:

I haven't washed the foam yet, but i got the foam from the other chair and tools to remove staples from the wood. this will allow me to do it this weekend. i need to remember to go to the dentist. I'm going to have to recover from the surgery too.

10-17 to do list:

-attempt to wash upholstery foam
-finish friend's 3 documents
-list pages on this site that need to be created and updated:

1. main pc page
2. health journal(add kits, show sleep kit, discuss teeth problems, list new appointments you must make, etc.)
3. immortality(vitamin stacks, basic, advanced, sensecent killing)
4. move chromebook to bottom of computers, add main pc page
5. instead of listing this here, restore site details page, and make lists like this there.

random 10-17 notes:

So it's been more than a week since i last wrote in this journal. I got the creative katana v2x soundbar and set it up over the weekend. I bought upholstery fabric, and i'm considering washing the existing foam cushions in a bucket with dish soap instead of buying new ones, i'd have to do this outside i think or maybe i could do it in a bucket in my bathtub then empty the bucket into a drain outside. That seems slightly wrong, but more possible. I'd then have to dry them which i think the dehumidifier could do. After the appoinment last week on monday, i made another appointment with the dentist for friday and at the friday one he decided to take my tooth out and now i have to pay another $1000 for that and some dentures with a bone graft. that's going to happen on friday. My mouth is still causing me to have trouble doing everything, but i did overcome the sleep problem with the sleep kit. i almost have my computer set up. I still have to get the keyboard and set up a permanent guitar cord. I also need to transfer all files from my laptop to this pc and i might need a large ssd, so that i could have all the old files I can find on that. This weekend i was also paid $275 by a friend to make some business cards and a tiny temporary webpage. It worked, first time trying that. Unfortunately due to this i cancelled guitar practice, which is something i almost always do. Music is kind of an unnecessary thing, so it gets cut quite a bit. I hope to make up for that at some point by ordering, then setting up the keyboard and permanently plugging in the guitar cable to this new pc. I haven't been able to do anything lately though because of my tooth, i feel a bit dizzy right now. I also stopped doing the android stuff and have been having trouble even playing games because of this. I am trying to keep the energy to keep going to work. the sleep improvement has helped a little, but hopefully the tooth removal on friday will make everything a lot better. my current main priority was supposed to be set to something else after the 14th, i was at first going to set it to 3d printing a flashlight for one week, but decided against it. I did readjust my pc after the soundbar came and even have used an under table cord management basket for the first time. It's still a mess but it's off the floor, cord management has always been a weakness of mine, as honestly, i don't care because i'm so used to cords being everywhere, but i know it's something that would be quite possible to improve on, so at some point i'll find and fully learn a very advanced way to do it, maybe 3d printing could help, maybe i could find some sort of cable sleeves i like or pvc pipes i like. I guess i could copy tech source or some other youtube channel's tutorials, but doing that would probably be expensive, so i could learn, then do it with my cheaper methods. but anyway on my new computer, what i just did is pretty good for me, compared to my abysmal cord management history, and definitely ok for now. I might get a small basket for the front to place controllers and headphones and stuff like that in at some point. Since i'm so messed up from the teeth, i'm setting my #1 priorty until tuesday of next week to fixing/reupholstering the two chairs.

10-9 to do list:

-(done)measure space for speakers
-(done)list sizes of speakers, done in a notepad file. se doesn't fit, too big. v2x is cheaper than v2, you don't need that much power, you just need the speakers to be ok, you want sxfi headphone output. i like the v1 the best in terms of its classic looks, its general similarity to old soundblaster stuff, but it doesn't have sxfi (headphone surround sound i think) output. v2x wins. Still way too expensive for speakers at $250. speakers should be $20. But this is my final real pc unless i actually do live to be 1000, so i should make it right. purchased. buy music keyboard next.
-(done)go to dentist at 2:00
-(done)get laundry done
-(done)attempt to buy upholstery fabric
-(not done)attempt to buy upholstery foam, but focus on the fabric, maybe you can do the foam by itself later or online.

random 10-9 notes:

It's monday, i woke up at 9:30am, it's 10:25 and i still feel a bit drowsy from all the sleeping stuff i took. It's a bit late to get up and i'm super drowsy from all the sleep pills, but at least it's not 1pm and i can deal with this drowsiness better than i can deal with that level of exhaustion. maybe after 10-14 i'll start reducing the sleep stuff i do, and move to another stack, maybe back to the default, immortality stack, for a little while. I have to remember to go to the dentist at 2:00. It would be nice to do the remaining laundry at my sister's house and get some upholstery materials. I might ask for the air fryer/toaster combo for my birthday. Still have to pick a specific one though. I think the speakers i was going to get are way too expensive, i'll wait until i see a deal or maybe just move my existing cheap speaker over. I only use headphones anyway. Speakers are just for guests. I'll wait a bit, or maybe i'll just get it idk. I'm also confused about whether i want the v1 v2 v2x or se. i'd normally take the se for sure, but it might be too big. I'm writing this here so i can stop thinking that. buying one would be another more effective way to stop thinking about that. Maybe them having multiple versions of a thing is just a sales tactic because that's what really gets in peoples heads, in fact i know it is. It's still working on me in this case though, especially since it's soundblaster. being too expensive and rare is another tactic they use, so you remember how you didn't have it when you were a kid. Maybe i should hate soundblaster, not love them. I wonder how creative got themselves listed as the #1 choice and everyone else, even sony, listed as low grade trash in every computer's bios for all those years. I had forgoten about them, but they then made the over ear mp3 player which i feel is the best mp3 player i've ever seen, especially for exercise, because it's just headphones with no cord, an sd card slot, and the mp3 player built in to the left side. I know most people love airpods, but i know they'd fall out with me, and i don't want to carry my phone with me when i go somewhere(to train) either (it's great everywhere else, airpods would be fine anywhere else, but then why not just normal or very low quality headphones or no sound at all, and/or a laptop). Something i can't do lately anyway because of the tooth, and that's why i'm going to the dentist at 2:00 so now we're back to that again. maybe i should actually list the sizes of the different speakers, and actually measure the amount of space i have beneath my monitor, that should be easy. I should also try to move more links over from old laptop to this pc, i know i could import them somehow, but i need to login to each one anyway. Also, i feel the coffee has worked and now i'm not as drowsy, so the drink to wake up and drink to go to sleep plan is working so far.

10-8 to do list:

-3d print a pla heart then switch the roll to tpu and print a tpu heart. update: OK, slightly harder than i thought, have to change settings in file not just on the printer. No default tpu settings on printer itself. Maybe i could update os, but probably want to do it from file. working on it. It failed several times. I think it's possible but i might need to update the os of the printer or maybe study the size of the extruder. I can definitely say it's not extremely easy to get my printer, the way it is set up right now to print in tpu. I'll have to give up on this for now and maybe start trying to 3d print a flashlight with pla again instead. I guess there's not going to be any tpu shoes this year.
Below, you can find the optimal Ender 5 settings that we recommend using while printing with TPU filament:
Print Temperature – 220 to 250 degrees Celsius
Bed Temperature – 50 to 60 degrees Celsius
Travel Speed – 150 mm/s to 200 mm/s
Print Speed – 20-30 millimeters per second
Layer Height – 0.16 mm (for a 0.4 mm nozzle)
Initial Layer – Height: 0.28 mm | Temperature – 225-255 degrees Celsius | Bed Temperature – Heated bed off or 50-60 degrees Celsius
Retraction – Distance – 2 mm | Speed – 20mm/s
Cooling Fan Speed – Off, or 20-40% (Higher end for overhangs and bridges)

random 10-8 notes:

11:09 am: failed to 3d print anything with tpu. I also saw an amazing robert murray smith video where he surprisingly debunked/disproved the article about the mit concrete supercapacitor. It's a terrible super capacitor. It doesn't have a good separator, or any layers of the sandwich that is a supercapacitor, it's not very effective at all. In the past he might have jumped on this idea, I think he's getting better. I kind of knew something was wrong with it, but i thought i must be wrong because the article must be right, that's not the case. I gues i thought the super capacitor structure including the separator and electrodes would somehow be built into the concrete/carbon brick, or be naturally/chemically within the carbon itself on a microscopic level, and the water would somehow be locked into the concrete. It kind of said that in the article. None of that is the case. My imagination runs away with what i want something to be, and this probably happens to lots of people, and that's how the google news article about an mit concrete/carbon supercap probably got lots of views. Too bad i can't just make some big black concrete/carbon bricks and charge them up with a sand battery, i guess the sand battery itself will have to fulfill this role, if it were the same size as a foundation size cement supercap, like several tons, it might be able to, sand stores a lot of heat, or it will have to charge car batteries or a powerwall using seeback generators. But it's good i didn't waste any time on this or go buy some concrete and make a mess. I also tried to update my health journal. I'm running out of time for today, but at least i wrote something on here.

7:58 am: i've been repeatedly not 3d printing a tpu thing so i'm just going to do that this morning.
6:32 am: I have a small box full of the sleep vitamins etc i bought. I drank the tea and took melatonin and a few other things last night. It kind of worked, kept me asleep from about 11:30 to about 5 am. i just need to keep doing it every night and then start isolating what actually works. the before bed drink concept is still good.
This morning I just watched a kind of crazy go kart video, watched them ride ebikes too. Previously i had watched a few wood go kart building videos. I really approve of what they're doing, but you have to be a very good driver to do that, you also need to be healthy and probably not an insomniac or severe migraine sufferer too, sufferer might be a good name for a band. Most people would just not be able to drive like that, so it would be extremely dangerous for an average pilot. I don't think i could really do it either, i might just be too law abiding, too brainwashed. This kind of illegal behavior is dangerous but it also might be an answer to smart cities, poverty, and oppression in general. Make the smart cities look dumb by doing something they weren't designed to monitor or understand. Just be a main character from the future and zoom past them like they're npcs in a video game. I think they use red lights as a signal that it's time to do a stunt. Let the regular people go to work or be homeless or be a cop all day while you use them as the background for a real life video game. It's like the cops don't even see them breaking all the laws because they're in such different worlds, or maybe because the cops know who they are and have much bigger problems to deal with, or stopping them wouldn't make money because it would be an unprofitable ticket or not a meaningful metric for their department or something, not sure why they weren't shot right away, but it's interesting to watch them not be. It's like the regular people in that city have buckets over their heads. The go kart i want to make is more like a covered ebike that goes 10-30mph, more like a podride. I don't think the real podride is actually purchasable or actually exists, it's a scam/vaporware, but i could possibly make my own. I like the idea of being able to use bikepaths in the winter, with some type of somehow legal covered winter vehicle. This would prevent the need for many car repairs, and allow me to bypass a lot of winter problems...i'd probably have a small heater in there, i'd go get groceries. So I don't think i want to use this new type of electric battery power and extra legal type of vehicle in the same way sur ronster does on his youtube channel, like i'm way more practical and kind of sadly within the mental walls of living on the west side of madison wisconsin. It's fun to watch other, more fortunate people in a far away place taking it to the limit though. Maybe them doing that will take the spotlight off of me with some lame 20mph diy thing too. Or maybe i'd get stopped and they'd get away because it would be easy to stop me and they're too fast to stop.

10-6 to do list:

-(done)quick research sleep aids, drinks, vitamins, medicines, buy them if necessary. complete, used the first link i saw, this one.

vitamins
1. d
2. c
3. magnesium
4. b
5. melatonin

herbs
1. valerian
2. chamomile
3. lavender
4. passion flower

medicines
1. diphenhydramine (Benadryl)
2. doxylamine succinate (Unisom)
3. asprin or ibuprofen

random 10-6 notes:

I'm kind of running out of time today. I might go to lunch then go to work, then tonight make the tea and take 1 supplement and a melotinin pill.

11:30am: i went to yola's cafe a few days ago and just got 1 fried egg and breakfast potatos and a small coffee on a day i was too tired to make my own breakfast. Their breakfast potatos are just a cut up potato, maybe they put some cooking oil on it, but they didn't destarch or pre cook or do anything special. I'd like to make them this way too as it's probably really easy, and i think i'd like it to be even easier if i got a new air fryer. I don't have a toaster anymore and didn't like my air fryer, so I am thinking of getting one of the new ones that's an all in one. I know much of what i've been doing lately has just been shopping and then buying stuff, hopefully that will start to change into using the stuff i just bought soon. I might make an effort to do that more.

11:10am: after quickly researching sleep aids, i went on a small shopping trip to make sure i had at least some form of all of them. I have been researching this in greater depth over the past few weeks, and I have some knowledge about what the higher quality vitamins are. For example, i have a picture somewhere of the best type of magnesium supplment. I also have a saved link somewhere of a before bed sleep drink that probably works. I've also figured out some nmn and nr supplments i want. These are expensive though, and i have to order them online and wait for them. So to get this started I have to have the lvl 1 version of a stack in every area. This is why i'll sometimes have something like dollar store vitamin d in there. That's why i bought sleepy time chamomile extra at metcaffes, when i really probably want something like som sleep. I probably need to photograph what i have, but the way i save pictures is way too slow and time consuming to transfer easily, yes i can plug in my phone and transfer all files to a folder, or login to gmail and get them from there, but i've found that's just not good enough to keep up with journals like this one. I need some type of app like omnivore, possibly even omnivore itself to quickly make my photos of things usable. I also need to plan my behaviors or schedule or routine, like i make the tea, eat one before bed supplment, dissolve the melotonin tablet under my tongue. take one supplement one day and one the next, etc.

I really have been experiencing sleep problems in the past few days. I did take my coats to klinke cleaners and it did work very well, in spite of all the silica dust the two coats were covered in. I moved the table back to where it was in my room. and my room is very organized and clean, partially because i managed to do that a little bit while i was not sleeping. It's hard to even play video games, i'm totally not able to do things. Part of my sleep problems are from the tooth pain. Sleep is the most important thing in health, in life extension, and in accomplishing anything or being able to deal with other people in any way, like even forget about being a good friend or family member, if i wanted to be a total asshole to other people or attack them, i would need to get some good rest first in order to do that properly. I was thinking that since i drink things to wake up every day, i should also drink something to go to sleep. Least scammy option for that is chamomille tea or something. There are expensive magnesium sleep drinks too, i think they don't work, because they don't have significant enough amounts of the active ingredients in them and they will make you have to wake up and pee but i might try them anyway. I'd also like to make a temporary vitamin stack of sleep vitamins that i would take for a period of time instead of the immortality vitamins or whatever other "vitamin stack", i made that term up just now, until i started being able to sleep more normally. so i guess the vitamin/supplement stacks i have include, sensecent cell killing, immortality(standard, vitamins only), immortality(advanced, nmn etc included), energy boost, and sleep.

my other projects would be all be going better if i were more consistent and able to sleep and do stuff consistently. It's not like i ever get to a point where i really can't do something, it's more like, i finish a tutorial, then don't have another tutorial to start and do something else. Or I think i've been working on one thing for too long, find a good place to stop and switch to something else. Like i'm not being straight up stopped or defeated when i try to do something, (except for maybe running sometimes), it's just time to go to work or too late at night and then i lack sleep, or i've got to fix some broken thing at my house or my sister's house. Or sometimes also one project not being done prevents another one from even starting, (and i should expand on this one later). Also i did sort of complete some projects, like the floor painting and like setting up this new computer, and setting up the fireplace tv stand, which is now effectively heating my room. So if i do complete something, it definitely seems like i didn't do anything, or like it never happened, it just becomes part of the world. Maybe i just forget about tasks after i complete them and kind of go back to zero. Like my floor, which i temporarily destroyed/sacrificed everything else to fix, is just the floor now. Maybe the result just wasn't impressive enough, it would be very to hard to create a floor so good it bent peoples reality or something, like stuff i do isn't generally going to be that entertaining, and even if it were, there'd be so much similar stuff online anyway, and maybe chatgpt would do it better anyway too. Anyway, I guess when i did that i was on the number 1 priority idea. Actually trying to do only one thing. Maybe that one thing now is restore the ability to sleep. For one week, until 10-14, i guess i'll do that. It's also ok to only partially do something or pick up something then drop it right away, part of the point of this website is to allow me to do just that. Like the air quality page, i could go look at my notes on that page and continue working on that right now, im not going to but at some point i hope i will. Enough of writing this kind of stuff though. I'm just going to write a to do list for the rest of today.

random site idea, update this site on site44 only once a month, maybe github update it too once a month. other idea, create site journal again for little ideas like this.

random 10-3 notes:

4:28pm: I made a minor update to the vitamin thing, but then my tooth started to hurt and i kind of fell asleep for the rest of the day again. that's ok, at least i can tell it's my tooth. I should definitely get it removed. Also I don't even know when my dentist appointment is, i should find that out. (found out it was monday 10-9 at 2:00)

9:34 am: kotlin tutorial finished and found the next one, the next one does expect you to have android studio and is a basic android app. I think i'm going to do something else right now, like one of the major day goals, but if i do this next tutorial, i'm going to try to download the apk (still?) and run it on the windows built in android emulator and on my phone.

8:03 am: i decided to ride to target instead. on my bike ride i decided that in my condo i'm not going to get the wall shelf done until at least spring, and it doesn't seem like i'm going to clean the basement enough to switch the two tvs until spring either. so i'm going to push the little table back, and set up the tiny tv there, maybe on top of something else if i can find something else that's good enough. then i'll use it to put stuff on at night. also i need a side table to eat stuff with. also i need to reupholster my chairs, but not until the other half of the laundry is done and put away. i also was thinking that my ebike is kind of a project that could lead to doing door dash or some similar thing. taking morning rides is kind of practice for that. If i do that i probably need a better helmet and better backpack and/or rear equipment platform eventually and if it works out, a better bike too. but not right away, but i'll have to start researching those bike things occasionally. I got the cinnamon and put it in my coffee. I also laid down for a little while. ebiking doesn't exhaust me like regular biking, but it does take balance and awareness. it is still an athletic thing just because of the balance element. now what? now kotlin till 9:00.

6:41 am: I made a simple but large breakfast, 2 boiled eggs, a pepper jack cheese sandwich and a cut up tomato and coffee. I remembered i wanted to get cinnamon for my coffee. I might go get that from pick and save so i can take a bike ride. the kotlin stuff is going better than expected. it's just java but with fewer/less annoying rules, and no true for loop. there are some shortcuts it takes that are slightly advanced to understand like you have to understand java to understand them, but it seems like they're avoidable and if you are using them you'll be able to research them ahead of time. most of the shortcuts it takes are just good, no ; symbols, no need to write String, though you can if you want. it figures out the datatype. only var and val as variable types. var is changable, val being permanent, so you don't have to write private static and stuff like that. maybe it loses some things because of that, but for android apps that might not matter as much as it would for enterprise databases. and i'm only interested in android apps. anyway i'm going to go buy cinnamon.

5:20 am: yesterday i did manage to do the first half of the laundry this morning i have been studying some light kotlin. I've got intellij running. Later i'll try to use android studio instead but for tutorials intellij is probably better, it's more like eclipse used to be. I was fighting a headache yesterday and i think i kind of won. I see that i'm up way too early today and am kind of worried ill have the same kind of early morning collapse. I am considering going and doing more laundry early. on the other hand i could just stay here and work on this kind of stuff until 4:00. I guess that's what i'll do since i can do the rest of the laundry on wednesday and no one expects me to do anything today other than work which expects me to be there at 5:00.

less random 10-3 notes:

1. redo respite forms for the third time.

2. connect small power supplies you found, plug in 3d printer

3. 3d print something, if successful, 3d print something in tpu.

4. if you run out of things to do look at numbered goals from yesterday.

5. update immortality site page with vitamin list, plan vitamin stand/shelf, maybe it could be printed, though that's a lot of printing, maybe it could even use togo's organizational system. but maybe it should also just be a dollar store plastic organizer. one side for vitamin containers and one side for cards with explanations of why. i don't want this to be an exxessive amount of vitamins or people won't do it, but i do want to cover them all and have a variety, write this on the immortality page lol.

6. push little table back. put tv on it, put wallet etc on it. eventually get an extension cord and power supply for it.

10-2:

random 10-2 notes:

2:00 pm: I came back from breakfast and almost got a headache then i fell asleep, now it's 2 o clock. the day is ruined lol. I guess i'll still try to do the laundry but man, my body always lets me down. It might have something to do with my tooth situation though. I'm not feeling particularly rested either.

7:16 am: balance ok, mortgage etc from monday successfully paid, going to breakfast. had an idea of just updating every journal every month. instead of having to fill them all out every day which really can't happen, idk. with all the projects too, it's way too hard to do them all. this journal is a nice thought, maybe i just do this every day and them every month or when i'm especially focusing on them.

7:15 am: checking balance, planning to go to breakfast. those two things aren't really related.

wrote note about wanting to move more links from old pc to new.

less random 10-2 notes:

1. Since the floor project I have not updated this website at all. I need to start updating this site again. I did recently copy all the files from dropbox over to my new documents folder on the new computer.

-I'm trying to realign the text on every one of the 75 sites. It's easy but repetitive, I can't just do it from css, by changing everything in only one place to avoid repetition because many of the sub tibles or pictures really need to remain center aligned. I made a new class called leftalgn and am slowly putting it where it needs to go. It gives me an easy thing to do when i don't want to do other things or when i want to watch random videos at the same time, which is all the time. Maybe that's a problem i should work on, but i need lots of time to just get going or ramp up to even a basic level it seems like, and this could be a way to do that.
-I should probably prioritize updating certain projects. Mainly i need to update the condo website and put in a gallery with all the pictures i took of painting the floor.
-also a site about my new pc with a gallery of pictures of it being built and some specs might be nice.
-I should add this journal and maybe some other things to the top row, so it's not just most recent. I was thinking of making some sort of intro page to the site up there in that first section too. I know i did previously delete something like that, but maybe it needs to be re-added in another form. just an idea, i'm probably not going to do that for a little while.

2. I plan to do a ton of laundry today, not regular laundry but laundry that was generated by the floor project, by the dust. I'm going to to to a laundromat and to klinke cleaners.

3. I still need to do the remotasks test and fix my economic situation and fix my teeth and complete the new computer setup. Including moving links, especially for monthly economic and banking type things.

4. I tried to 3d print something only to remember the printer isn't plugged in and i need to add a second power strip to the main network table. The construction of the new pc is definitely putting a strain on my supplies of certain things, at least at the condo, maybe i have extras at the house. Need new power strip, and again to complete new computer, and i guess room setup.

5. both relearning android development with kotlin and learning how to do everything including that with ai are two major projects, and i'm not being consistent with either one, but maybe i'll find some low level thing to do in both. I need to use the new chat gpt voice and picture features, hopefully i'll try that some time this month.

3-15:

today will be a busy day. to do in no particular order:
-find skus of paints in preparation for menards trip, not available at menards or home depot, must order online from home depot and pick up.
-fix vacuum, done
-discuss floor repair plans with family, done
-update dropbox/this site, done
-post in health journal about last appointment, include pdf located in pdf/medical, not done
-create the list page , not done
-restart site details page(all these things about this webpage will go in there)
-create ai page, not done
-post on excercise page., done
-refresh your knowledge of uhaul rentals
-move mining rig to closet, not done
-move 2 main clothes boxes to empty network table., not done
-get some empty boxes and prepare to move lots of stuff., not done

3-14:

had an idea of putting a local chat gpt inside of a router, instead of my idea which i will be able to do of inside of a nas/local server. but what if one was just inside of/came with every router? doesn't really matter i guess.

When i got back from the eye doctor's appointment yesterday, i was pretty tired and sick, maybe because of the dust, so i didn't continue working on the floor like i had hoped, but at the same time, i'm still doing pretty well. This last corner is very difficult to clear out. I'm starting to think that i want most stuff to be out of here. not only do i want this to be about painting the floor, but i also want a kind of reorganization and cleaning. last night i stayed up later than i should, and didn't wake up until about 11:30, looks like the market did nothing anyway, and at this point i've made a plan to go to pf after work ends at 9. It's ok, this is going to happen. the 3d printer is a problem, the crypto pc is a problem. I might put them on the kitchen table, or what i'm leaning towards now is putting them in the closet, and taking the rest of the stuff that i can take to either a storage locker or to my family's house.

2:56pm: because i felt bad when i woke up and because i realize that my main priority now has switched from carpet removal to removing all removable items, getting materials for the next stages, planning to rent a uhaul on monday, letting my family know what my plans are, buying paint, stuff like that, i mostly focused on tack strips. Let me tell you, i suck at nearly everything, but at the skill of removing tack strips, man i am a master. I get better with each strike of the hammer, i lvl up at like 5x the normal rate. Many people hate how it crushes their knees, i used one of those kids rubber floor tiles that i have from an earlier project where i used a temporary rug to make the place in front of my bathroom sink comfortable to walk on. I'm going to remove those carpets as they're dirty now, but they probably will be replaced by some type of bath mats. Anyway using a rubber pad like that works really well, i don't have to hurt my knees or get dirty, it's warm and comfortable, if i do sit up on my knees, it is pretty well padded, and works better than i think knee pads would. It also lets me comfortably sit cross legged. I don't think anyone i've seen online has used this or realized this. I won't ever use knee pads now, and i thought of this myself. I'll probably use it when i sand tough areas too. I'm probably going to use an orbital sander because this is the cheaper option, and now i'm not afraid of being on the ground for long periods of time. One problem with my tack strips is that the nails are so old that they're rusted into the floor, this is why i can't do it in 3 minutes with a shovel, which is a cool hack, but won't work in every room. I suppose ill add these journals to my condo page since they are daily journals about anything but i went from worrying about the tack strips, to now considering that one of the easier and more enjoyable things about this process.

3-13:

5:40pm - 2? am: I had a very nice appointment with my eye doctor at 3:40. details in health journal. I kind of wasted time on the way home, going to stores and not buying anything, got some groceries though, then when i got home i was super tired, partially from working all weekend. Couldn't make it to pf or even get up. Just watched youtube after that, accidentally watched the entire history of the confict between carthage and greece/syracuse, man that war went on forever, over 100 years, there were some awesome things that happened in it, don't really remember it all, was half asleep.

It's 2:36 pm now, pretty productive day so far. I got up early, ate a small breakfast and scanned the market, decided not to trade, realized pretty quickly that a sort of bank bailout had just happened with extremely rich depositors getting covered for their entire accounts by the fdic. The limit would normally be 250,000 but many tech companies including one of my favorites, etsy, had billions of dollars in svb, so i'm not entirely mad at the bailout, and some people say it isn't a bailout because svb is going to be allowed to go bankrupt, unlike banks in 2009 which were directly saved from bankruptcy. It is a bailout of the banking industry as a whole though, because if the standard laws were followed and only accounts of 250k or less were insured by the fdic, rich people and companies would start pulling their money out of all banks, and this would create a bank run on all banks, so it's an indirect bailout. It mostly protects the rich, but that's why they have to do it. It's no fun and it seems like it might end in disaster. As long as FRED doesn't go down to nothing, the fed will continue to do this type of bailout, and FRED will not be allowed to go down to nothing because our country is pretty much in a sort of war mode. The world is at war, i think world war 3 has pretty much begun. For russia it's ww3, for iran and israel it's ww3. the mainstream news, like cnn and stuff, said xi xing ping, president of china, mispelling his name here, but they said he was going to meet with russia about a month back to tell russia he was going to sanction them if they didn't seek a ceasefire with ukraine, but contrary to their stories, xi jinping went over there and agreed to send russia more ammo and weapons, then increased the amount of military drills in china that are aimed at preparing to attack taiwan. now they're saying the same stuff about xi's upcoming visit, i bet it will be the same again. meanwhile japan i know has been intensly expanding its military and navy for at least the past year. I know this partially because one of the credit card payoff channels i was watching had a guy who was/is stationed in japan with the navy. I wasn't trying to find it, i just did. I think japan is building an aircraft carrier too, a pretty big change from japan's post ww2 policies and treaties. The us is also sending an above normal amount of weapons to taiwan. So there's a good chance china actually will attack, and what else would that be at that point with russia basically fighting for its life against europe and china basically fighting for its life against sk, japan, us. Not saying i like either russia or china, but ukraine kind of seems existential to russia(yeah they were dumb to invade ukraine, and they've always been on the authoritarian side of countries, but i have kind of a soft spot for them, i understand russia, ivan the terrible, rasputin, great bad guys, good drinkers, fascinating people, i wouldn't like to see the kremlin burn down, i have no such soft spot for china however, i think china is awful and i wouldn't mind seeing red square or the imperial palace on fire, i don't think it's possible to burn the entire great wall), but like em or not, russia can't lose, or they're gone. if china now invades taiwan, they'll be in an existential fight too, as will the USA, china is no joke. I think israel and iran are kind of in a fight like that too. Turkey might flip on nato and join russia if russia gets really lucky. if china does invade taiwan though, the us would directly step in, and what else would it be then but ww3? The world military situation is giving me 1939 vibes right now. Oh and the real estate market all over the world is starting to crack up and crash in interesting and complicated ways too, but that might just make my land buying plans more realistic.

Ok so then after thinking about all that and finishing my oatmeal, i did start ripping out the carpet like i'm supposed to, and i got really far. I removed the carpet everywhere except for under this heavy desk. I'm going to try to do that tonight. I also found a technique to remove the rusty nails that don't come out with the tack strips, I just hammer them with the pry bar until they loosen. Now i don't have to cut them all off with a rotary tool, they come out entirely this way, sometimes they take some concrete with them sure, but i want them all the way out, i'll use filler before painting anyway. Ok i'm going to take a shower and go to an eye exam now, byyyeeee.

3-12:

symbolic exercise, followed by symbolic carpet removal, then went to work, then went to bed, though i did come up with some ideas about what order to remove, clean, and paint in. I got to bed at about 11:30 after watching lots of youtube videos, probably not remembering much of what they said. I do think the economy and the world are doing pretty bad. I've decided in the immediate future, like the next year to just focus on getting better sleep, paying off debts, advancing to the next tech level, making this one little room into a nice place, and doing one project at a time. Right now that one project is carpet removal.

3-11:

Feeling a little sick this morning, maybe because of the carpet haha. I cut only a small square out of it today. I'm still pretty sure it will be gone by the end of tuesday. Had to pay amazon card. May make a secret financial page, actually no i should find a good financial app or something like notion or maybe start using evernote again, i am aware of those things, but they seem to get lost in my documents folder and then go away, they don't seem as permanent and always accessible to me as a website like this. I guess this is my projects page, it's not really supposed to be my personal page, but it doesn't really matter, maybe i'll fix that issue eventually too maybe make a section called "personal" or something haha. Might bring back the site details page too, then have 4 pictures on top instead of 3.

3-10:

-I decided to add this journal page and also a page with a list of all projects page called the list, it will also have the top 5 current priorities and the top 1 main priority. I'm probably going to put them on the top.

-my main project right now is tearing out my carpet at my condo, this is being journaled on the condo page.

-today i made entries in: condo, exercise, migraine journal.

-I've had a real schedule change lately. My headaches seem to be a little better. My economic situation became bad a few months ago after i needed to pay for some unexpected car repairs. My car is pretty old too, so that's a long term problem. My boss agreed to give me a raise and my choice of hours, so i am now full time at my job, this is against my belief system as i think no one should have to work, at least not with our current level of technology, you can read all about that in my simulated town page. I'm also kind of disabled, i've tried the standard way of living, and it turns out what's normal to everyone else has come close to killing me. When is the last time your arm went numb, you lost your eyesight, you had to leave work, then had a bad headache for 5 days? For me it was a little over a month ago and that's really good, good enough for me to feel like i can work more. I've tried the hard approach of pushing through migraines and my other physical issues, especially when i was in school and college, but that does not work in the long term. But I also happen to believe that work and jobs are silly ideas and shouldn't exist. Unfortunately, no one else is as enlightened as me, so because everyone else besides me is so primitive and backward, i'm forced to work sometimes. It's like if i was transported back to the middle ages i'd probably have to be a peasant or at best a king with no flush toilets, rampant disease, all the problems they had in the middle ages. Maybe i'd be able to make a voltaic pile and try to dig a latrine or reinvent a toilet, but there's only so much that one person from the future can do on their own, and people will burn you as a witch or warlock if you try to talk to them too much about this subject. I could tell them the plauge was from fleas, and they probably wouldn't listen, they'd probably just burn me to death. People are the same right now, even my closest friends and family are firmly attached to this primitive time with its limited ideas. I do appreciate my job as jobs in this time period go though, i'm ok at it and i seem to have it under control lately, it's not too stressful, they're more understanding than other jobs about my migraine issues, i feel what i'm doing is on the good side, it's not a total scam like some of the call centers i've been to are, i know for sure i'm not committing any crimes, it's got flexible hours, and it's close to my house. So i'm currently working on just making my small room better and paying off some credit cards. I feel the economy in general is verging on collapse, and i'm not just saying that for fun like i normally do, yesterday some banks were losing a lot of value in the stock market. The market went down by 500 points yesterday and blackstone defaulted on some properties in europe. Even blackrock and blackstone are going down. This actually might be the beginning of a crash. Maybe it will be the real estate crash i always hope might happen. Maybe i'll be able to buy some cheap land, but probably not, who knows? all i can do is watch. Anyway, i got my tax return and everything seems like it's going to be stable and going in the right direction for at least the next year, unless something happens of course.